2006-07-10 : 1:19 a.m. : fatty boobalatty
sooo, yeah. How many times did I write that I would actually keep this up? right. like 700. Anyways, I thought that maybe I could use this to sort of document what the hell I am doing these days, by allowing me to actually see what I am doing--in words. Sounds lame right? Bu what I really mean is that I don;t think I am actually realizing what kinds of things I am doing to sabatoge my progress.
I am getting married in 9 months...and I want to lose a ridiculous amount of weight. So I started nutrisystem. problem is, I have fallen off of the wagon most terribly and Jason (the fiance) has been of absolutely no help. Taco bell? sure, I'll drive if you buy--nice, way to support the habit.
I have come to the very harsh reality that I am addicted to food. I feel like a druggie or something. I just stayed up waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too late watching like 3 different TLC shows on "super obese" people and it made me sososososososo sad. I don;t want that to be me--I want to live.
like many of the people on these shows, I wasn't being honest with myself about what or how much i was eating. So among other things, this is going to be my little food diary. of course, I could definetly use the outlet for other things that are going on, so be prepared to be bored to death! :)
kp
